When I first found out that you were on your way here I had no clue how to feel. I was so nervous and scared even because I didn’t know what to expect. But, then once you arrived, I took one look at you and I realized you were God’s answer to everything I needed in this life. The love I’ve longed for and by far the greatest gift I’ve ever received.
When I saw your face the first time I began to cry. You were so tiny. You looked into my eyes and quickly closed them resting your head on my chest. In that moment, it became crystal clear to me what winning is all about. It is so much more than getting a trophy after crossing the finish line or the feeling you get after your first kiss. You literally redefined what life meant to me. The air I inhaled was even different. Like magic, my entire self had transformed within seconds after you entered the world.
I knew there was no turning back. No regrets. No second thoughts. To tell you the truth, I didn’t have any. I was totally head over hills in love. When you entered the world everything in my life lit up. You became the sun. My son. When I held you in my arms it was in that moment I knew that I could conquer anything. I wanted to touch the sky; move mountains; land on Mars; skydive, you name it. I had no fear. For the very first time I was looking forward to the rest of my life. I grew up. My first thought was how I would talk, teach, and laugh with you. The fact that we get to do this every single day makes me wants to scream with excitement.
By the time you turned age one you were already dancing to the Fresh Beat Band, cracking jokes, pissing off the cat, and driving your sister crazy. I never imagined that not even a year later you would go on and on about how you don’t like jelly on your peanut butter sandwiches, about your ever growing love for French fries and watching you bop your head along with mine while listening to the Gap Band. You’re just a little over six years old now and I’ve become your biggest fan. Not only have you grown an entire inch and a half since your last birthday but who knew you were going to learn how to read so fast. Everyday you surprise me with something new you’ve learned. For a while most people thought that I was exaggerating and hyping you up because you are my son. But, then they get to know you for themselves and come back to tell me how right I am about you. Your teacher tells me how much you you’re so eager to want to learn about new and interesting things; how high you can count and how when she forgets her place in a storybook she reads to the class, you remind her of where she last left off. I couldn’t help but to smile and hold by my excitement. It’s not because I wasn’t already fully aware of what she told me, but because I love hearing others speak so highly of you. It feels really good to know that you make others just as happy to be around you as I am. You show us all each and every single day just how amazing you are. Who needs a hero or favorite celebrity when I’ve got you?
The other day you stopped to admire some flowers in a neighbor’s garden. I marveled at the way you stared at them as you asked what kind of flowers they were. You told me how pretty they are and then asked if could you pick some just for me. Although, you weren’t able to, I thought the gesture was so sweet. It really brings tears to my eyes to know that you see me just as I see you. Sometimes we all need perspective. When you’ve been set right in front of perfection and you see all of these amazing things happening, you are taken aback. I’ve faced many roadblocks in life that once contributed to my undoing. The perspective I’ve gained has helped me to tap into parts of myself I never knew existed realizing just how fortunate I truly am. To live and love in ways I’d never thought that I could. I look forward to sharing more days together with you, recording your best moments and professing to the world just how proud I am of you. I look forward to each and every single story you will tell, every song you sing out loud, and bandaging up every boo-boo. I look forward to the advice you’ll ask for about your first date; the help you will need filling out those college applications and the smile you’ll wear on your wedding day.
In life, you learn that God gives us all talents and great gifts but there has been no greater reward to me than being your mother.
I love you always.
